tough life...

I feel scared,and i feel more unsecured rite now,i thk u all noe wat is happening recently,it juz like i am havin a cold war wif all my GK friends here,gk means genting kelang,but then i was like scared while wif them,unsecured,and not confident at all,wat kinda life is tis???oh my god,man.....i rili hard to express my feelings rite now,juz wanna say,is tough life at KL,maybe i more suitable for those quite life,living in the forest is wat i wanna do when i was young,but,i noe,tis wun becum reality,becvoz i nid to study,sabah less college to study wat i want to study,so,i been forced here to study,so,nothing can say,study to earn knowledge,most important is to earn money lorr,if not how i m goin to live???but the life here quite sux lehh,maybe tis is the T-junction for me to change my life,and GOD is trying to challenge me,i noe,GOD is too challenge me,but,luckily,sumtimes i still got a bit lucky,bu a bit bad luck oso,good luck is becoz i haf found some true frends here,bad luck is in the same time,i haf oso found those ppl i didnt even meet b4 in my hometown,maybe wat keat say is true,penang ppl sumtimes rili sux,although he is one part of peang guy,but,he say peang ppl is sux,they trying to use ppl as long as they needed,and they oso 'kia soo' ppl,means those ppl tat scared to lose de,OMG!!!the GOD is rili challenging me,in the same time,i still got support from my friends,thx GOD,maybe sumtimes i too straight to treat ppl,ppl oso straight forward to cut over me,quite tough sumtimes,if i not straight forward,i feel like am i kam???i noe,the kam jia chuan at kl haf a big different wif the kam jia chuan at sabah,i thk it is rili big different....

kam jia chuan at kl is like,fake in front of SOME ppl,cant say even it is wrong,often cheat himself,full of pimples,useless in study,juz noe hw to copy answer from friends,last minutes doin things,cheat ppl sumtimes,often been ignored by other ppl,ppl treat me like slave sumtimes,responsible in SOME kinda problems oni,the main prob(FAKE LIFE)!!!!!!,and more....

kam jia chuan at kk,happy all the time,likes to cook a lotz(for family everyday coz mum finish work at 8pm,no time to cook),straight forward but not been reject,haf uncountable friends,no pimples guy,friendly person,passionate person,kind ppl,owez help friends,fetch friends to here and there to help ppl,promise ppl then sure can done,responsible,love family,kampung guy tat didnt been to coffee bean b4,like to 'ss',and more....

who can tell me,how i could survive in KL here,i rili wanna go home rite now,i feel a bit sad rite now,and some tears in my eyes,but it cant get out from my eyes,thinking of the tough life,and full of fakeness in my mind,and oso regret wat i had done to my friends.....maybe i think too much of things tis few days,and thk till wanna explode,but dun haf the boom inside my body,hard on releasing my stress......dun worry bout me,my friends,as long as i treat u all as my firneds,plezz be kind to me,if not i will be a slave,like today,driving the avanza to fetch all the rubbish person,tat kinda feeling is hard to expressing.....if i dun fetch them,sure been given lotz of comments......i hate to gif other ppl comments.....they like to talk it at my bek,y dun u tell me in front of myself???huh????i rili辛苦rite now.....

sincerely,

kane